Operation Spill my guts week.... UGGGG

[Lady Laurel]

Heah guys, I just have so much drama in my life. :roll:
Today I leave to go back to see my husband in rehab. We are going to do the Family counceling this week. You know spill you gutts totally in front of strangers.
I have been building myself up for it went to Allanon, and saw my psychologist yesterday.
I even went out and bought two new outfits to wear that make me feel good. I figured I need all the positive good feeling I can get to do this.
The husband is progressing and is now on step three which is turn over all off his problems and past to a higher power. He just keeps having problems with it but for him to get well he has to do this. He seems to be doing good though upbeat and found he can have fun sober.
Anyway keep me in your thought this week. Hopefully when I come back I will be a new women. ( can't tell what that will be) As my psychologist told me yesterday you are stronge, a fighter, and a survivor. ( Now to convince me off this)

[AnnaFaerie]

My thoughts are with you. I know this is hard for you. Do what you can...then no more. What does not kill us...makes us stronger.

[Lady Laurel]

Thanks Anna :lol:

[Angel_of_Fire]

i second everything AnnaFaerie said! remember that we are here for you and that we all love you very much!

[Sparrow]

no advice....just :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

-k

[milcliar]

All positive energies to you and yours, hon.....YES you are strong!!!!!!!!!

[Artemisia]

:grouphug::grouphug:
Reiki healing coming your way...
You can do this. You are strong. You are a Wench!

[Lady Laurel]

You are a Wench!

Thats right and we can do anything. Thanks yall are so great you have not idea.

[Myfanawy]

I'm glad to hear your hubby's rehab is going well...and that you're treating yourself a little bit (you've GOT to to maintain sanity, sometimes!) You rock, and a big *hug* to you!
:grouphug:
--M

[daBaroness]

Ah m'lady Laurel - I SO understand. My youngest son's father was a certifiable mess when we met and I got pregnant. I was the perfect enabler and he was the perfect addict ... so sincere, so manipulative, so heartbreaking. I even worked for a drug abuse prevention organization and understood it in my head - but living it was another story. All my strength couldn't give him self esteem, self respect and strength of his own. For nearly two years I wouldn't let him have contact with his son because I decided I'd rather have my son hate me because he was too young to understand than to have him see the ugliness of addiction and the patheticness of his father's life and hate him.

Prior to that I was supportive through three or four (I forget) turns in treatment - taking my baby to see his dad essentially locked up and struggling, only to relapse and slide deeper into addiction.

But somehow the grace of the Creator and his love for his son - along with everyone in his life finally realizing we weren't helping by enabling him - he hit bottom and began his journey of recovery. Terry has now been sober for seven years. He rarely goes a day without attending a meeting - either AA or NA. He works his program and he's returned to being the loving, thoughtful, intelligent man he was before the drugs and booze nearly buried him. Tonight he was to speak before a big celebration at AA - and although he was nervous, he knew he'd do fine just speaking from the heart.

He's come a LONG way from being homeless and hopeless. Today he has his own business, continues to be clean and sober and is now taking on a new challenge as our son is now living with his dad and will be attending a new school. Being a full-time parent is new for Terry - but I know he's going to do a great job. It's going to be good for both our son and Terry.

I tell you all this to tell you there is hope. Addiction is an ugly thing - difficult to shake and perhaps even more difficult to watch. I don't know of a single addict who hasn't relapsed. I don't know a single family member of an addict who hasn't ached with pain. But I know many of both who have triumphed by taking it one day at a time, celebrating the small victories and overcoming their addiction with daily hard work. It is possible to live a great life in recovery - and it is possible to forgive and move forward.

I send you my best thoughts and prayers that your husband will find his way back to a happy, productive and peaceful life. And that you find peace and solace as he goes through this process. May you come out on the other side even better than you went in. Blessings.

[Buxom Wench]

Ah m'lady Laurel - I SO understand.......
I send you my best thoughts and prayers that your husband will find his way back to a happy, productive and peaceful life. And that you find peace and solace as he goes through this process. May you come out on the other side even better than you went in. Blessings.
I couldn't agree more !!!
As I told you before, my brother had been a cocaine addict. He wasn't as lucky as your husband.
Just remember, everyone here loves you (REALLY, we do :D ) and all our hopes, best wishes and prayers (no matter what form they may take), are being sent to you.

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[Lady Laurel]

Thank you Dabaronness - I have learned so much in the last few days it is almost overwhelming. The sadness, the pain, the release of so much anger and sadness. My God I feel like a ton off weight has been lifted off of me. I feel like I awoke from a long nightmare with some hope to go on. I have been to several Alanon and family meetings this week and there is hope. The sun did come out and I feel empowered with a type of knowledge to help myself and my husband. He is working the program and wants so very much to get better. I am going to do the twelve steps with Alanon to help me detach and save my sanity in the situation. The neatest thing is I started talking and could not stop. I talked to so maney people that are addicks and they are so glad to see me supporting my husband and wish thier families would support them. The sad part is so maney have burned thier bridges and have lost everything. My husband feels lucky in that aspect. I actually spoke at a AA meeting Saturday and read for the Alannon group for the families. There is not anymore secrets and I made it through with a new found strength that I never knew I had. Thank you all for you support. There is hope now. I felt there was none for so long but there is and I have no control over the future only God does and I am praying that he is keeping my husband safe because I can't.
The first step is to admit you are powerless and your life is out off control.

[AnnaFaerie]

Thank you Dabaronness - I have learned so much in the last few days it is almost overwhelming. The sadness, the pain, the release of so much anger and sadness. My God I feel like a ton off weight has been lifted off of me. I feel like I awoke from a long nightmare with some hope to go on. I have been to several Alanon and family meetings this week and there is hope. The sun did come out and I feel empowered with a type of knowledge to help myself and my husband. He is working the program and wants so very much to get better. I am going to do the twelve steps with Alanon to help me detach and save my sanity in the situation. The neatest thing is I started talking and could not stop. I talked to so maney people that are addicks and they are so glad to see me supporting my husband and wish thier families would support them. The sad part is so maney have burned thier bridges and have lost everything. My husband feels lucky in that aspect. I actually spoke at a AA meeting Saturday and read for the Alannon group for the families. There is not anymore secrets and I made it through with a new found strength that I never knew I had. Thank you all for you support. There is hope now. I felt there was none for so long but there is and I have no control over the future only God does and I am praying that he is keeping my husband safe because I can't.
The first step is to admit you are powerless and your life is out off control.

I've thought of you a few times this weekend and wondered how things were going.

While reading your post I was filled with hope myself that all will be well.

God bless and keep both of you.

[Nimue]

Your husband is so lucky to have such a wonderful, strong, and loving wife! It takes serious fortitude to be able to support a recovering addict...it can be so draining and emotionally arduous! You have all my admiration, as well as my best wishes!

[Elsbeth McCoughllie]

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--Myf

Looks like a spambot trying to sell us drugs!!! :irked:
CLEARLY not a loving and supportive wench!!!!!!!!!

Bright blessings, love and healing to you and your entire situation!! :grouphug:

[Margaret]

As my psychologist told me yesterday you are stronge, a fighter, and a survivor. ( Now to convince me off this)


Laurel - look at what you have done, and what you have accomplished. You are not hiding under a desk or saying "This is not my problem you deal with it." even though I am sure you have felt like that from time to time. Do you realize how much strength, determination and hutzpah that takes.

You are strong. You are a fighter. You are a survior.

Love you, Laurel. Be well, be happy.

[Margaret]

Looks like a spambot trying to sell us drugs!!! :irked:
CLEARLY not a loving and supportive wench!!!!!!!!!




/shakes head. Damn trolls. I will let Snipe know and she can remove it.

[webmistress]

done

[Margaret]

Danka Lady. As wonderful as ever, you are. :)

[Lady Laurel]

Wow thank you Maggie, yeah life has gotten better around here. There are no more secrets and he is actively trying to beat this. ( insert me jumping up and down for joy)
I have been taking it one day at a time. We start going to marriage counseling in two weeks. That is going to be really interesting. Anyway Thank you for your good and kind thoughts. I start college Sept 1 I am going to be so busy. The goal is to take my mind from negative to positive.

[AnnaFaerie]

Good for you! Much luck at school.

My god you two are brave! I admire what you are doing to make a better life.

[Lady Laurel]

My god you two are brave! I admire what you are doing to make a better life

Anna - I don't know if its bravery or desperation but thanks. Every morning I have been waking up telling myself its going to go up from here. :lol: