to all you who are gurus:)

[Holly]

are ya'll tired of me yet?

got another question..
<takes a deep breath>

OK .. i lived in NW pa when i was in college.. duirng that time i really felt drwn to Wicca and the craft. Well, not Wicca specicially.. but definalty craftwork. I had a huge liberary, read tarot, was not in a coven adn i did not out myself as a anything else then me.

then I moved to ohio.. well columbus.. and the "connection" went away. I did not feel moved in any way. In fact, I was so frusterated about the whole "not religously pooping or getting off the pot" that i sold my books and what not. Ok, so i was fine.. didnt find a churhc home or a coven or an anything,....

Now i moved back to NW pa.. and not only is is colder and darker.. but the whole connection is back ... ihavent ran out to get books or anthing yet but i am confused. Why did it come and go ?? If i even moved anywehre els will it go?? and does this make my whole wicca quandry seem so trite?

I did not change friends or social circles. I did get a "real" job that was like dante's 5th circle of hell. But.. it did not drive me to any which way.
Now, how can i mix my faiths?

Arge....
maybe i should stick with how i describe my beliefs...
i am 50% fundamental christian
50% pagan
and 25% cathloic <taht is more cultural then anything>


and yes i have been to belief.net.. many times....

[lliberty]

Hello Holly,

I am by no means an expert, but I have thought long and hard about my belief system. For the longest time I had a similar problem, but rather than where I lived, it had to do with where I worked. At one job it was great, then I had to get another job, and things fell apart. Since then I have asked many of the same questions.

What I found, with the help of my loving wife, was that I had given up on myself. I thought I was mad, or at least upset with my church for failing me, but in truth I was mad at myself for falling away with no reasons. The only thing that worked for me was to just let go of the past and start fresh. That wasn't easy, but it has worked.

I can only hope this helps you in some small way. Good luck, bless you, and fair winds.

Sincerely,
Lyndon Liberty

[Nevada]

Liberty is right inner and outer influences can affect your connection...I feel closer to my faith when I am away from the city area....maybe it because I come from a long line of rancher/farmers or because that is where I was when I came into my faith....and maybe wicca isnt your path but another pagan path is ...such as Odinism or Druidism etc....or a mixture of several elements....

[Isabella]

Hi Holly,
I find myself drawn to multiple spiritualities, that normally wouldn't match or want to match, but I find a way to create a happy medium for myself. When you come to the point in life where one particular idea or form of worship doesn't appeal to find it's flavor for you, and you are drawn to different ideas why not?

Best way to explain. When I was learning Reiki, my Master Teacher was Christian and followed the traditions of the South American Cultures. She taught me about Pachu Mama, the Mother Earth, who we feed our negativity too. About the fire elementals who help clense us of our old habits and help to reignite our burning wishes and desires. She taught me the compassion and love of Christ. The ability to offer prayers of peace, joy and quiet to Him, and find love within the joy that is his being so that we could find peace love and joy within our beings. We both taught each other about the Buddhist Bodhisivatta of Compassion, Kwan Yin/Guan Yin/Cannon, who's name means, "She who hears the cries of the World." And how her compassion, kindness, graciousness, and light help each of us cope with life's harsh realities. Women in China pray to her when they are without children. I taught her of Grandmother Spiderwomen, the weaver of Creativity and of this world from Navajo Traditions, along with the Traditions of Ireland, and the Philippines where my families come from. I taught her about Paganism, of which I was raised and taught in a Grove for many years. About it's it's history, energy, communication, ideas, and ritual. How that all Pagans aren't negative, that some are relecting what they have seen spiritually of their raising, and are learning to release it through their learning, and study, to find a more gracious kindness in their Craft. I taught her about Buddhist thought, idea and 8 Auspicious gates to Nirvana. I also taught her about Hinduism, and Ganesha the Remover of Obsticles. I taughter her the Mantras of Tibetian Buddhism and Hinduism, along with the Catholic Rosary. I gave her the first rosary and told her, that it wasn't just for Catholics. How diverse and wonderful silent and outspoken prayer are, after her mother passed away. She would speak it over and over as she tried to overcome her mourning.

So in this, I have mixed, released, created and accepted many forms of spirituality as my own. I am many things, as there are many titles. I accept many walks of life as I accept drinks of water, or food for my belly. Just as we as people eat from many plates of food from many different cultures, so do we when we find ourselves inside our spirituality. I am diverse as a person, so of course I will be as a being learning about my person! This is what makes me what I am, and who I am. And this is what brings me joy.

If you find joy in what you have learned, keep learining it. Learn about what gives you joy. Blend them, and breath them. Be them. The only "right" is what you decide is right for your heart, mind and soul. :)

Metta, Many Blessings, and Joy on the Path that is you!
Pinay

P.S. I agree with Nevada, it took me 2200 miles to find my "spiritual home". Some of us it takes longer, or shorter of a time. It's taken my old Reiki master six moves from Arkansas to California to Illinos to Michigan to Ohio to New Mexico to find where her heart speaks. Maybe this is a lesson and you are learning from this move. I don't know, but accept what it's telling you and see what it's saying. :)