My teflon coated brain

[Galleywench]

This is simply a rant... I need to vent it just a bit, because if I start to cry I'm never ever going to stop.

OK.. first the background...back in May I had the misfortune of getting whomped over the head by carbon monoxide at work. I work(ed) for a car dealer doing admin stuff (health benefits and better hours than the chef position I held before). The CO detector had been going off and the supervisor took the batteries out because the beeping was annoying.

In a nutshell...I have been going through nuerophysiotherapy to retrain my brain to pick up the slack for the dead brain cells.
After sevreal weeks of testing the doctor tells me he has good news and bad news.

The good news is that I have not become completely stupid (a very real fear) and that my memory in fact is quite good. Insert confused look here...because I don't seem to be able to remember dates, times, appointments, lists of any kind, directions, instructions...you name it I've forgotten it recently. here comes the bad news. While my memory ability is in the 75th percentile and upward my capacity to learn NEW information is less than 1%...it's not that I don't remember the stuff, I just don't get it in the first place.

Not a good sign.
Apparently it's textbook for the toxicology of carbon monoxide. No idea if I'll ever be well enough to drive, teach a class or hold down a job ever again. Forget going back to school..I'd be throwing away scholarship and tuition money, and with the price tag at the culinary institute of America as high as it is I'm not about to just toss it away.

Yes, I have a lawyer. No, no amount of money will make this "right".

:cry:

[AnnaFaerie]

I have no words of wisdom for you. I want to say I understand, but it wouldn't help, would it? I wish you the best and I'm glad you have a lawyer.

[Drea Beth]

:grouphug:

[I'Cin]

And remember, doctors are sometimes wrong and the ability of the human body to heal itself is sometimes miraculous. Don't give up hope, and hang in there. :grouphug:

I'Cin

[Caitriona]

*Hug*

My SIL experienced severe memory loss due to a concussion plus MS lesions on top of it. I know the pain she went through. As she would put it, her life was alot like the movie Memento.

Hang in there. Have you seen any memory specialists? I had taken Deb to a hospital for special testing and then "re-training".

If you want to vent pm or email me..

[Mairi the Herbwench]

Don't give up hope! My husband had 3 significant CO esposures while a nechanic. He quit that job, was able to get thru school, and change professions. It *can* be done - but it won't be easy. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

[saphoenixsilver]

I am so sorry to hear about this. There are no words to express my sympathy for you. My grandfather went through something similar a long time ago, so if you ever wish to just vent, feel free to pm or e-mail me as well. Do not give up hope though. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[Artemisia]

My hubby fell off a 12' ladder straight onto a concrete floor head first. He had a worse diagnosis for his memory and learning. Good news - he's back in college studying Geology. Yes, it's taking him a little more time and he has accepted that fact, but it's worth it for him and I'm proud of him. You can go back to school if you want to. Accepting any of our limitations is what is difficult, but it can be overcome - don't let anything stop you.

:grouphug:

[Galleywench]

Thanks for the encouragement...I think that's what I truly needed when I made the post. I was having a "lost" day and needed to know that there was someone out there!

[MacKahlia]

Hang in there! We're all here for you, and we have hope and faith in you.


Hugs

Allie

[Galleywench]

Hang in there! We're all here for you, and we have hope and faith in you.


Hugs

Allie

There you go....making me cry!
Thank you :) I needed that.

[Mistress Kath the Innkeep]

:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

[Nevada]

try starting by auditing a class instead being graded in the class...some institutes allow that...will keep my finger crossed

[Phoenix McHeit]

:grouphug::smooch:

[Adriana Rose]

:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:
Try taking Ginko(sp?) that might help with the memory thing.

I hope that you have a better day!!

And don't worry every thing is gonna be OK

[Cassandra from VTRF]

:smooch: :grouphug:

[Lucy]

:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

We luv you! Hang in there and don't look to the worst! What do docs REALLY know anyway??? I agree with I'Cin... the human body is an amazing creature...

*sends some healing power your way*

[Janelle of Warren]

(:grouphug: x 6,000,000) + :bath: (six million hugs and a bubble bath!)

My thought and good energy are with you.

Keet the good things that you are still accomplishing in mind. I've been following the info. on the Queen's Galley, including the newspaper article and am ever more impressed. You're clearly still contributing and making the world a better place. That much good karma is bound to come back to you in times of need! :D