ok so i read everyone elses posts in here and i feel almost stupid posting my problem but i really need some help. there is this guy(ya i know a stuoid guy!!!) who is younger than me im 18 he is like 16? maybe? anywho i have a REALLY bad weakness for this guy! he goes to school in waco because the court made him. he smokes(or says he does) he steals his grandmothers truck and drives it into other peoples backyards. he says " i don't give a damn!!!" and im thinking its a case of "thy doth protest TOO much" ya know??? i hate to say it but its a case of high skool "love," i mean i get weak in the knees if he touches me and i dont know what to do! he is a BIG flirt and does this with everyone but he says he loves me sooo much! ya right but i cant help but be drawn to him! OH GOD HELP ME!!! i love him but i HATE him even more! plz someone tell me im stupid and that i should get over him! tell me that there is a rogue out there for me my AGE( i have a problem with that there either too young or 10+ older than me!!!!) and that i will find someone!
that would have to be a major fear of mine being alone. i am the first woman to make it to june 14th after graduation and not be married! my greatgran was already pregnant, my gran already had 3 kids (married at like15), my mom was forced to finish high skool before my dad would marry her ( they got married june 13)! i beat the odds but what if i really did beat them and i end up alone? in my worst nightmares i am all alone. everyone is dead and m alone. thats why i hated my high skool because i was alone all the time. i used think that if i were to disappear NO ONE would notice! i feel so alone even now.
im sorry im just feeling sorry for myself. i guess i just wanted someone to tell and seeing as how yall are the only ones who care that i exist i unloaded my sorry life on yall!