I'm having a really hard time getting over my ex.
The main problem is I'm an old fashoned girl, I lost my oral virginity to this guy and I always thought I only wanted one partner. The idea of moving on and giving my body to another guy is not sitting well with me.
He dumped late July. (we were engaged, he took the ring back. I had just moved in and had to pack everthing back up and leave)
Since then I have gotten stomech ulcers from too much stress.
I just started seeing a wonderful new guy a few weeks ago. I'm nuts about him, he treats me great, but I haven't been able to let him touch me.
He's been very understanding. But part of me feels it isn't fair to him to be dealing with all the drama I'm going through now. (my ex and his family and friends have been very busy spreading nasty rumors about me. A few people have accually gone to my new guy's aunt and warned her about me)
My ex has decided he no longer believes I'm a virgin or that he was my first oral. Claims I was cheating on him and using him the whole time. None of which is true.
I know it takes time to get over these things. But I still feel empty. I can tell my new boyfriend is starting to get frustrated with my keeping my guard up so much. I'd love nothing more than to be able to trust him. but it's so hard after what happend.
I know everyone's saying to just move on, but this was my first really serious relationship. I know it probally sounds stupid and immature, but I don't know what to do.
P.S.: any wenches willing to answer a few more stupid immature sex questions, pm or email me.